The Fallen

The weeks and months of sleepless nights

and deepest thought

Have come to naught-

For I flirt upon the edge of dreams in a state of total comatose

Once in the dream of a night I stand

looking above a at dark night sky

I hear a sea of endless, long forgotten song

A song whose words were long gone

The wings of air smotheres me like a heavy blanket over my soul and heart

that made kissing dances upon my bare back

The desert wind begins to whine.

Deep within, raging fire burn,

On and on, the inferno twisting turns

Within the ghastly, adherent on

Secretly wishing for sweet oblivion song.

No stars or the moon rays to light my ways

For I was lost and tired of never ending circle of life and death or of light and dark

But The night was still young and dark .

As i stood there alone and depraved of my reasoning

A tear fell from my face

Making myself a disgrace of

Tears walling into a void of eternal pain and torture

For all the risk, through fear of falling

But a brightest light awaites me

As the damned road traveled unwound.,

The tears cleared out I saw then,a shadow of a fallen angel

Born of eternal light and darkness

of dark matter stardust and stars,

Thought I Saw An Angel,

For I Didn’t Mean To Stare

sHE never looked to Have A Halo,

But She had That Certain Grace

Hair like polished bronze

With a wave and natural hold

Eyes nocturnally large,

Deep hazel with lightning gold

,

When no stars throb with light,

Her sparkles break through the dark of the night.

It is the music of her pellucid stream,

arousing wilted love sprout from cleft of night.

I willed to tear my eyes away from her

once her gaze caught and held mine

to a silent allure

Deeper into me she seemed to stare with

Eyes so bright and magnetic

Her lips parted in a captivating engaging smile

the way the sun strains against the clouds

to throw it's warm rays,

Her sweet whispers soothe my shadows,

Depthless eyes alight my soul

Mesmerized by her lovely voice

Persuaded to close my eyes

My nightmares were turned into sweet dreams

Wishing that tomorrow will never come

As I lay here beside her love

In this bed of roses that was once an empty space

The smile in my face will never be erased

Could this be my eternal sleep?

Her Eyes beckoned me

Her body language spoke volumes

The language of love and desire inflamed within

Her sweet whispers soothe my shadows,

Depthless eyes alight my soul.

Tonight I must make this fantasy into a reality.

I cannot live on images. carnal hunger craves

Veritability of pleasure, not phantoms of fever.

Each moment stretches into eternity;.

Soon I will make love to her

I almost touched her

It was almost real

It almost happened

I can almost feel

Her hands on my body

her kiss that feels so real

I was almost inside of her

Dripping the sweat of passion, the heat

Passions were revealed,

desires inflamed,

never once believed,

such pleasures awaited

Dreaming about the past

Mentally it’s still that night

My lips on hers

Our embrace so tight

The passion out of nowhere

I didn’t expect it all

That made it more thrilling

She held me in her thrall

Petaled lips, those

lingually teased -

passionate moans

in as ecstasy seized.

She moaned in pleasure

As my soul heats higher

She was my dream come true

My burning desire

hER touch, soft and tender.

A whisper, full of desire

A gasp of sweet surrender

As passion fuels the fire

No words spoken between us

No promises to be kept

No lies being told tonight

No looking back - no regrets

And then…it was over

reality interrupted

the fantasy was gone

the spell was broken

And this beast, as it fell,

Takes me down, straight to Hell!

falling inside the abyss, the infinite darkness

to find the woman that death took her away

my dark goddess

For i had sold my soul to the one who fell

For it was my road to perdition and eternal hell.;-)

My first and final phone call

In the midst of a wintry night, a love unfurrowed to take flight..

Sweet days had gone as I sat in front of a gloomy night.

Thinking of any way to make myself cheerful and bright

Upon my very eyes, everything seems black and white

I was in reverie, I didn't know what was wrong and what was right?

Tis was many hours before the dawn,

Yet all should have been in bed;

My loved ones faces filled the night;

.For My heart was filled with dread.

I had blood oozing out my veins

Even that couldn't satiate my need for pain

I wondered if my death was what I needed

Or was that to be too little too late

The sky was empty

Except the new moon,

My clock conducted

An eerie blank tune,

The call that came in my black sleep

Awakened me with a fright of sea,

At three, the silence broke

The peaceful calm of night,

But it was a night to remember and cherished even more

.The phone rang auto

And up I did spring,

Much too scared was I, not to

To Answer that darn thing.

I struggled for composure as

I reached to grab the phone;

My stomach squeaked with inflamed light, my burning heart sighed

"Who was it?", I thought

But say I did not,

"It is I", said she

And the phone turned hot.

Pain sheared my ears and veins

Like the Words of invisible knife that goes deeper with each

Word spoken until it makes it through,

As It splashed through my brain

And poured out my eyes

Like blood in a drain.

I cried as she spoke

Of sinister things,

Of wanting the world

And envying wings.

For It was the voice of a shield maiden.

.Her eternal the voice spoke of seduction

Eroticism, witticism and full of compassion

Rubbing on me

Kissing me

Whispering to me........

I Love You

A voice that prompts thoughts

Of Nights of wild abandon

Of full moons.... Above warm tropical rains

Of long moonlit walks on the sands

Of fine wines and blessed candlelit dinners

Of romantic destinations, nights filled by sighs AND scream

A woman she was whose song was an epitome of

Intelligence, inventiveness, romance, and heaven-sent

Knowledgeable about so many subjects relentless and with undying gleam

With a voice that entrances sweet and direct

A woman's maturity and a little girl's innocence

Simple naiveté and seductive temptress

A complex woman without a doubt

A siren perhaps, singing to tout

Chivalry, sensitivity, and love

Her voice spoke volumes

The velvety smoothness of it…

The teasing of her words…

Or was it something else,

I was not sure of?

My desire for

Her

Her scent?

Of sex?

Of lust?

Of Love?…

Of her Feel?

But I hide behind masks hoping

She will not see the real me.

The me that was damaged

By the misfortunes of yesterday's deeds

I always felt myself changing slowly but surely

Into something

Was it a dreaded beast deep within?

And wanting to be a perfectionist on everything

Trying to not let people down again

Was this the real me?

I was tired of searching,

Tired of running

Tired of fighting

Tired of hiding

For the cause that was not my own in writing,

BUt She made me realize

I was not alone in this battle

I had her who understood who I was,

That was a night to remember

For She made me feel as I was special,

Like I was all she wanted to see,

The only thing I didn't understand,

Is why she chose me.

Her voice beckoned me to Go to sleep and kissed me in my eyes,

For I always dreamt of bleeding heart burning through my life

But this night was something different,

As She caressed me to rest

Her peaceful dreams,

Of twinkling stars and shining moon beam

Made me go to rest

The mighty sun rose high as the darkness gave its way

I woke up from my aeonic slumber and found myself a way

I thought this was a dream indeed for I was in my lay

But the phone was on my heart lying like a gay...

But Alas I could never find her

The angel of my dreams

My search ended outright

For it was not my place to be,

I called it quits and decided to sell my phone

But just as the night turned on again the phone rang again

For this was my First and final phone call till this very end

;-)

Be my Nymphetamine

Darkest were are all my nights

Hollow and so alone

No pain I suffer greater

No pain like this I've known

Be my Nymphetamine

She stood there in the shadows and waited for me

I waited for her to come to me

I needed her love and she gave of herself

But it was a dream, this Lamashtu,

Hair like the raven, eyes that speak in mystery and fire and amber

She whispered to me in her deepest secret desire

Be mine be my Nymphetamine

But alas, the tears fall unstopped

The emptiness, my tomb

Time, the Lord of Agony

In this world without you

Before I slip into eternal chaos

And my self immolation may begin in earnest

Be my Nymphetamine

Her touch is, I hearken for,

Hopes that she can feel

My words of misery

My longing to have her near

Be my Nymphetamine

May we be together to the end

Or may be it our longing and broken end

But In Her Heart she bears eternal hope of undying will

And the Faith she carries inside her that death can't kill

For she is my Nymphetamine

But my mortality, suddenly extinguished, taken away without warning

I was naked, left in the eternal abyss

To survive, searching for any glimmer

On the distant horizon

Alas The sacrifices I made,

Shoved in my face,

For all to judge,

Until I die

Be my Nymphetamine

But in death I saw a new light

With new courage, my own light,

And she to save me

From the everlasting darkness,

I take flight

High above the waiting chasm of death

Towards a faint glimmer

Far on the horizon and Hope.

And there she stood my new Nymphetamine ....